How To Dress Well – Decisions (feat. Yuksel Arslan)

How To Dress Well (aka Tom Krell) has been busy making legions of free music and casting them off into the blogosphere. Much of HTDW’s catalogue to-date is spectral, barely hovering around your eardrums before evaporating into a sensual mist. Weightless, echoing vocals bob along gaseous beats complemented by ethereal coos, fractions of words often elongated and looped to create their own instrument. The result is mystifying and pleasant, but often hard to grasp, leaving the listener wanting more.

Refreshingly, Decisions is one of the more tangible tracks HTDW has produced. For one, you can actually make out distinct vocals, which bring to mind the gentlest, most vulnerable moments of Bon Iver’s For Emma, Forever Ago. At times Decisions evokes the soul of Annie Lennox (via No More I Love You’s) and dances with the rhythm of early Brian McKnight. His lyrics are stretched out like silly putty then glazed over a gravitational drumbeat that is just enough to keep you from floating away. The gorgeous finished product haunts long after the two and a half minutes end.

Internet buzz has created a red carpet for the release of HTDW’s first full-length record, Love Remains, out September 21. According to his blog, Decisions made the cut along with another 13 remastered selections from self-released material. While delicate, abstract droning has its place, let’s hope Krell continues to harness his sound and bring it a little closer to the physical realm, where its more available for our digestion.

Best of Summer Music 2k10

In my humble opinion... here goes nothing:

1. Sleigh Bells - Treats
Imagine if Underoath and Lil’ Jon had a love child then put it up for adoption. That child was raised by Karen O and Salt N’ Pepa was its babysitter…now you have an idea as to what Sleigh Bells sounds like. It doesn’t really matter what genre it can be filed under, what matters is that Treats is pure Red Bull, boiled down and concentrated. Alexis Krauss’ soft vocals often bubble up over slashing crunchy guitars and slam-your-foot-down beats. She even busts out some slick rhymes on "Kids" that weave in and out of crunk noise like an eel navigating a coral reef. Don’t get me wrong though, Krauss is not the headliner here, its Derek Miller and his musical accompaniment. From wailing guitar riffs on “Riot Rhythm” to a relaxing strum/bell/fingersnap combo on “Rill Rill” the music drives this album. And it will drive it right through your windshield if the volume is high enough (which it should be).



2. Wavves – King of the Beach
King of the Beach sounds like the title of a ‘60s surfer movie, and in some ways that’s what Williams has created here in music form, as there are clear vintage Beach Boys-like melodies and a carefree attitude. But this album is a product of the current era with a gritty lo-fi edge and yea, he sings about playing Nintendo. With less noise and more structure, this album is more accessible than his first offering but Wavves does not lose its loose, party feel. “King of the Beach,” opens up and jumps right in where Williams left off previously with a chunky garage rock sound. It invites the sun to burn our backs as we escape into a sweaty teenage summer jaunt on the coast. The album takes a few slower turns though, and “Baseball Cards” is a synthy, soft number right when you feel like you might need a break from Wavves’ rough edges. “Convertible Balloon” is worth the price of admission here, and might be the song of summer 2k10. It’s poppy jingle is perfect for a windows down drive with your friends to the boardwalk. In “Post Acid,” Williams bellows Im just havin’ fun with you/with you/with you… yea, well we all are Nathan.



3. Local Natives – Gorilla Manor
This album has been in my rotation since before the sweet heat of summer, but it nonetheless deserves its place on this list. If the previous two albums provide sun-baked energy, this one is a respite in the shade. Slinky riffs and gentle drum beats that can bring to mind tribal bongos characterize this album. The band seems to almost be playing in your dreams and will neatly tuck itself into your subconscious. Make no mistake, this is not a light album, but it is smooth. Smooth like a well mixed orange freeze. Each song brings something new to the table from the genuine longing in “Airplanes” where Taylor Rice mourns the death of his grandfather saying I love it all so much/I call/I want you back to the Yeasayer infused funk of “Sun Hands.” An almost sexy guitar riff sneaks into “Cards and Quarters” and the song makes you feel like you really should be lounging with cigar in hand, playing poker at a pool party. The track of the album, however, is “Who Knows Who Cares” which bounces along from the start with a silky rhythm but by the middle when the drums roll in and the guitar drives us home, its almost euphoric.

1, 2, 3, VILLAINS!

Ive been going through a bit of a dry spell creatively. I haven’t been feeling like I had anything important to say, nothing new or fresh or helpful for anyone. So I decided not to write at all. I was going to post about all that, or maybe some kind of depressing “why don’t I feel useful” entry… then maybe in a great Christian twist I would present the gospel to myself and pep up towards the end because I should only find my worth in Christ who has already revealed I am of great worth… but instead Im going to write about church league softball.

The Trinity Black team (self dubbed: The Villains) has not been the juggernaut I had hoped we would be when I agreed to coach the team in May. With a record of 2-7 headed into the last few weeks of the season, we are far from any kind of playoff push. This season, although “for fun,” has tested my competitive drive and as the coach/manager I wonder what I could have done differently to help us play better early on. I wonder if I should have instituted “mandatory” practices with threats of not playing if you didn’t attend or commanded that everyone put in 3 hours of batting cage time a week, with a signed reciept from Grand Slam Sports. Perhaps that would have made our record better. Perhaps people would have thought I was a good coach. Perhaps my pride could have been fueled.

But even if we had won more games I don’t know if I would have gotten the excitement that I get when a teammate posts “its softball day!” on their gchat status. Yes, perhaps that sounds ridiculous to you… but for me it is the most gratifying feeling. I cant explain it, but I feel like trying.

As a coach, the best feeling is seeing excitement in your players’ eyes when they arrive at the ballpark. To see them want to play. I get more satisfaction showing up at Nickajack and seeing at least 10 members of our team there an hour early to get in extra practice than I do hitting a home run. Viewing the season as more a manager and less a player has made me appreciate team unity and camaraderie more than ever before. Of course, I would absolutely relish in destroying Dark Green tonight, I mean really crush their spirits, but I am so excited to just gather with friends, high five my team and enjoy some summer heat.

I love this Villains squad because even at the bottom of the standings we’re excited to go out and spoil someone’s season by puling an upset every week.

I love that we all still get a Villains cheer before and after every game, and if low morale calls for it, in-between innings.

I love that Elliot has THE BEST chatter ability of anyone in the Trinity league, I’m convinced of this.

I love that Pei-Jean practices her swing during lunch breaks at work.

I love that Beka suggested we all eat together after the first game when we didn’t know each other and we kept that up most every Monday.

I love that I finally can see that winning isn’t everything, and for the first time in my life I can say that with honesty.

Scarcity and Overgrowth...

This year I will be observing lent.

I have done so before: giving up chocolate, soda, facebook and the like. However my focus has always been on the self-denial aspect of this season. Certainly this is a part of it. When Christ was in the desert, wandering for 40 days he had nothing. His whole life was an act of self-denial, not the least of which was denial of his seat at the Right Hand. But it cannot only be about self sacrifice, for what good is that? There must be a reason behind such sacrifice.

I think that two great things come out of this period of abstinence.

First, preparation. Christ was preparing himself in the wilderness for his ministry. During Lent I think we prepare our hearts to long for the fullness that we will receive at Easter. Of course, we already have the redemption offered by Christ but observing the season and looking forward to celebrating renews our minds and hearts to remember the joy of salvation. Going without meat or coffee or facebook, denying certain pleasures that have undoubtedly been given through us by grace through the Father, make us long for fullness again. We will long for the abundant life that is promised in restoration. I believe that completeness will only be achieved in our Heavenly bodies, but like all observances here in this world, we also may enjoy a shadow of what is to come.

That desire to FB poke that cute girl in Physics class, that taste for a sugar cookie, or that tiredness you may feel by not having your morning coffee: those are all longings for true community, true bread and true awakening. Everything God has blessed us with in this realm is a shadow of something beautiful he is preparing for us in a robust way for us to enjoy for all eternity. Lent is not about giving up things just for the sake of giving up things, or even giving up things so you can find time to pray more. I believe it is to set our minds in a mode to long for Truth. To long for Real things, things that we satisfy on a daily basis with counterfeit coins. Let us set our minds to worship and develop a taste for the treasures promised in Christ and look forward to a celebration.

As I mentioned before, I believe there are two things that come out of this self-denying period. The second of which is celebration. I believe in this time of Lent we can look forward to the feast that will be enjoyed by all at the Great Banquet at the end of this Time here on Earth. A time when all the shadows will be dusted away. And the grass will hurt our feet because it is so real and rainbows will hurt our eyes because they are so bright and one bite of a pomegranite will saturate us because it is so sweet. Oh, what a celebration that will be!

Also, in less grand fashion we may celebrate here in this physical body with our friends and family coming out of Lent. It all pours into itself: shaking off the burden of self-denial, enjoying the pleasures we have been without, celebrating Christ being rasied from the dead, and in turn celebrating what that means for us. It means all these things we have been longing for throughout Lent are gladly given back in abundance. It means that Christ has already given up enough so that we may reap the rewards.

As I grow older in my faith I have come to see so much I have been taught in religion is that there are things God wants to strip from us. Basically I viewed Lent as let us give up our pleasure, pray a lot, and then we will be holy. But I do not think Lent is that. God opertaes in fullness and in exuberant richness. We will give up our pleasures to wait for them. We will wait and prepare. Then when the time is right, we will feast and celebrate and what a wonderful time it will be! The Father wants us to enjoy this life, and he has belssed us with good chocolate, laughter, video games, and diet cokes. These are things that we may enjoy.

A deep, dark beer and tobacco pipe savoured among friends will be all the more lovely since we've missed it for 40 days.

Let us focus our eyes on True pleasures during this season of Lent and look forward to the celebration that is to come.

LESPWA

Short and Sweet:

Lespwa is my friends' nonprofit with the orphanage. Click to know what they are about and/or to donate.

As of now they need tremendous amounts of acute monetary support. Messailler (where the orphanage is) is currently a place of shelter for the people fleeing Port Au Prince. Lespwa is in a unique position to support Messailler and be a place of calm refuge in a time of chaos. The compound has already served as a makeshift medical clinic and boarding house since the earthquake. They will need continued prayers and support in the days to come.

LESPWA

Are you kidding me?

Those were the words I uttered upon hearing of the devastation in Haiti last Tuesday. This is a place that has captured my heart and mind as evidenced by the four previous posts. I was just in Port Au Prince not three weeks ago. My friends were still living there not five days ago. I have been overwhelmed this past week as to what to do.

I have come to realize that all I can do is pray, currently. I cannot physically be there, but the Father is there. I have also found it useful to stay updated in the goings on through friends' first person accounts, emails, and news sources. Hopefully when the time is right and an opportunity arises, I will be able to mobilize quickly and be used in a tangible way.

I do not think it will be useful to recap things that have happened, that can be done by reading Jay and Diana's blog or Jeremy's blog, which are linked on the sidebar to your left. I have also chosen a few articles that have been of interest to me and linked them below.

I urge you to let your heart ache if necessary, pray in abundance, give if you can, and go if you are called.

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Haiti, pt. 4: TIH

There is almost too much to say about Haiti. There are ideas huddled beside feelings and concerns piggybacking resolutions spinning around emotions. It is all very overwhelming. The improvement projects needed branch off into a forest of tasks and the root system of all the problems seen in Haiti is no less complex.

From day one, Haiti is impossible. Everything about Haiti seems broken. Everything: government, sanitation, spiritual climate, community, courtesy, patience, agriculture, zoning, education…and the list goes on.

As a rich white intruder I want to clean it all up in a week long volunteer effort to put on my resume. This of course, is impossible. But, even so, I think with enough time and effort, Yes We Can!We can come in and clean up this sin drenched place. I find that this attitude yields so many problems, though. The first question must be asked: do they need to be “rescued”? Well clearly this place is not living in perfection, it is far removed from the Garden. However the next question is what does it need? Does it need “our way?” The American system is also ripe with injustice and sin….it just smells better.

The real hopelessness blooms, when, sitting and talking about all there is to Haiti, one realizes that even the solutions have problems. Progress, as so valued by us, has so many ornate trapdoors.

For instance: dropping shoes from a plane to distribute to the Haitians will protect and cover the children’s feet from the jagged rocks of the landscape (but will it also take jobs from local shoemakers, creating…more poverty?) Surely some initiatives like a nationwide trash collection or sex education are paces to start, but those are far too massive for me to feel like I can even consider! And even if those things were started, the long term effects of what those projects could turn into remain unknown. There are many caveats to progress.

Progress unleashed without a moral barometer can be utterly devastating and create situations worse than were present before. Just look around you, inquire into the food industry, inquire into the clothing industry. The consequences of unbridled advancement in the name of progress are all around us. This was one of the problems that kept coming up in late night ponderings. To improve or help Haiti always was paired with the system being polluted or taken advantage of or done in the wrong way to produce a different, sometimes more complex problem. It all seems so hopeless.

So, what shall we say now?

I was encouraged after reading an article in the latest issue of The Economist*. All these thoughts on what to do about Haiti had been weighing on me since I touched down in Port Au Prince, and this article reinforced the confusion at first: it discussed the fragile balance between progress and destruction. This concept had been debated countless times over the week at the orphanage. We would wax on our ideal visions of Haiti, then others would point out how that wouldn’t work for one reason or another. The term “be realistic” was thrown around a lot, and not angrily, but gently and often with a depressing sigh.

In the Economist article, philosopher Susan Neiman wrote that “every time someone tells you to ‘be realistic’ they are asking you to compromise your ideals.” I found this to be extremely interesting and remarkably accurate. But ideals are hard, and I learned this week they seem too grand to actually be possible. The encouragement lies with what Neiman says next: your ideals will never be met completely, but sometimes, however imperfectly, you can make progress. She writes that often we create a false idea that a choice must be made between Utopia and degeneracy. Neiman argues that this is not true and that moral progress is neither guaranteed nor hopeless.

I think her conclusion was a more eloquent version of what I had been musing towards the end of the trip: We can only try to resolve or nurture what we see set before us today.

Operating with love and compassion we can only take small steps forward on an immediate and daily basis. Of course, we must constantly recheck our motives, goals and hearts to be sure they are consistent with our original intention. Haiti cannot be saved in a day, but small, consistent efforts of love over a long period of time is how it will be done. We may never live to see full healing in our physical condition, but that timing does not matter.

I belive this concept becomes even more hopeful and beautiful under the grace offered through Christ. The hope of Haiti lies not wth us, and our hope lies not with helping Haiti. Rather, the hope of both parties rests with Christ. We can be vessels of change, but ultimately our efforts will be kinked and skewed with sin. Thankfully, He is the hope of all things. One day He will do more than make progress, He will restore to perfection. And until then, His enduring grace will fill in the cracks when we inevitably take a wrong turn or make a mistake while trying to do His work.

* I dont want to give false impressions of grandeur here, this is not normal reading material for me. That was the first time I had even picked up The Economist. The cover article "Progress and its Perils" caught my eye in the airport.

Haiti, pt. 3: Ki jan ou rele?

There are few things as beautiful as when a little one remembers your name. And comes running.

It is such a surprise that they remember, such a sweet acknowledgement that you have connected with them.

Upon arriving in Haiti, there were children that called out “Luke!” and “Alex!” and “Diana!” I knew they were remembered because they’ve been there before, or because they lived at the orphanage. But I must admit I was jealous. I wanted to walk up to a group of kids and have just one of them remember that I had thrown them in the air the day before, or spun them around, or carried them on my shoulders. Gloriously, this happened with three children while I was in Haiti.

Waldo – He caught my eye because he was wearing a Gators jersey. He was also the only child to list his full name when asked: Waldo Douswali. He loved to be picked up but he didn’t like the insanity of throws, spins and falls like the other boys. Waldo was content with just having his hand held or sitting in your arms. He loved to do the Gator chomp and say “Go Gators!” Or at least he seemed to think it was a fun thing I taught him.

Waldo was a village kid, but he was not a fixture at the compound like other villagers. I only saw him on two days, at Vacation Bible School, then he disappeared into the wilderness of Haiti. But I will always remember him running out on to the playground, amidst a field of wild banshees, headed right at me and saying “Aiiiii Geeee!”

And I picked him up and hugged him.

Gimsley – With goofy teeth too big for his head and an insatiable appetite for spins, Gimsley was quite a character. He is one of the orphans that lives within the walls of the compound, loved and cared for on a daily basis. His smile showed so much more contentment and safety than many of the other kids we saw that week. It is clear that Gimsley’s heart has been softened while at the orphanage.

Unfortunately, he has an iron-tight stomach and demanded to be spun around at all times. Over the course of a week, he singlehandedly made me more nauseous than all the burning garbage on the plains and the sewage flowing in the rivers. When not being twirled about, he demanded to be hoisted up upon my shoulders. Gimsley was a guy who liked the high life.

Walking over to the orphanage one afternoon with Luke and Katie, Gimsley came around the corner. He immediately started running at me. He exclaimed “AY JAY” and, of course, once he was right in front of me he said potem, meaning “hold me.” Soon he was back up on my shoulders as we headed to the makeshift soccer field.

I cannot wait to go back and spin him around until we both collapse.

Nadine - She came up to me one day on our first walk through the village. It was a sneak attack as she ran up behind me and slipped her little hand into mine and looked up, hopeful. This was the beginning of a strained and heartbreaking relationship.

She kept motioning to her throat and saying something in Creole. Over and over again I looked down, unable to respond because I didn’t know what she was saying. Then she patted her stomach, then she patted mine. Then she pointed to her mouth and said that word again. All I could do in response was shrug and put her up on my shoulders.

I learned later that Nadine was a village kid, she did not attend school nor was she an orphan. In fact, her parents are voodoo clergy. I also learned that she was telling me she was hungry, apparently she always says she is hungry, even when in the process of eating.

She has an odd way about her: very touchy, but not in a sweet way, odd and almost inappropriate. Touchy in a way that hints she knows what she’s doing. She can’t be more than 10. I don’t know what she has been taught or what life has shown her to create this behavior. I long for her to discover a more beautiful way.

Nadine became a representation of my hardest reality in Haiti. She was the village at large, the people untouched by the safe walls of the mission, the hopeless ones. She didn’t get the presents handed to the orphans or the snacks given to the school children at the Christmas party. We did, however, acquire a plate of popcorn and cheez puffs for her one afternoon (which she ate half and stuffed half in her pockets) and I gave her a half-liter of lemonade (which she downed in literally 5 seconds). But who will love Nadine after we leave? Who will remember about Nadine?

She remembered me, she called out my name, and it broke my heart.